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This third feast has helped me on many levels understand the nature of addiction to cooked foods. During my first two feasts (14 days and 28 days) I was still very dependent on the juice itself, wanting large quantities and sometimes chugging down a quart so fast my tummy would bloat. On this third time, I am feeling more mindful, and now choose to be more conscious as I consume juice–both of it’s vibration, ingredients and essence, and of my own body’s sense of fullness and satisfaction.

This feast has been different as I have added the use of Universal Principles of the Law of Attraction (LOA) to my practices, with the overarching goal of re-programming my subconscious and patterns into permanent health changes. This includes achieving my goal weight, getting daily exercise, re-inventing my self-image, and continuing towards the end result of being a 100% live foodist. At this current time, I am other than 100% positive that I can achieve that, so I will just continue the reprogramming aspect of my mind during the juice feast and see what happens at the finish line. Prior to this, I was counting almost exclusively upon the detoxifying effect of the juice to remove all cravings for cooked food. And in that I live in a household of others who eat cooked food, perhaps this is unrealistic. My current approach is to also add the practice of strong imagery, self-suggestion, written affirmations, and visual meditations to seed and cultivate a new mindset for myself during the feast, so that the stream within which I play is flowing within the live food river.

This is important to me for many reasons, the primary one is that it seems to be a no-brainer to choose the path and diet that brings optimum health. My experience in the past was that I could maintain a lifestyle of about 85% live foods, but that remaining 15% of cooked was sometimes the un-healthiest of cooked foods, the forbidden foods that cause a brain state change, and were every bit as anesthetizing as liquor to an alcoholic.

So this is a commonality among all of us who were born into the “slavery” of being presented with (and addicted to) a cooked food diet from a young age. As a baby, I was given cereal at age six months so I would sleep through the night and not bother my mother. Unknowingly, she drugged me on the opiates in the grains, and I have been struggling with this addiction and the resulting weight issues ever since.

In my juice feast clarity, detoxed, spiritually open, and aware, I seek permanent solutions to this cycle, knowing full well that the temptations (like crack to an addict) have not left the planet. So the onus is upon me to reprogram my subconscious in the most positive, most uplifting way possible, so that I can co-habituate with the all the cooked-eaters on the planet and feel joyful and happy.

I recently attended the San Diego County Fair and had a great time wandering around in front of all the food booths, deeply sniffing the air and savoring all the aromas of the life force escaping in the food. I was not tempted in the least, and chose to really enjoy the smells, even of meat and foods that I would never choose to eat. I was in a place of no-mind, non-judgment, just “loving what is”. As I took the tram in from a remote parking lot, I consumed my last cold jar of juice for a while upon arriving at the fair, so just drank water for the rest of the day until around 11:00PM, when I returned to my car and my juice stash. There was nothing to buy at the fair that I could have, so I lived on the smells and the sights, and found that they actually fed me and energized me. Last year, I was there with many jars of juice and prepared raw food goodies, making repeated trips to the cooler in my car to get my food while those with whom I came gorged themselves on deep-fried this and that. This year I paid attention to the auric field of those eating this food, their glassy-eyed stares, their bloated faces and bodies, and I said a prayer of gratitude that I have been graced with a bit of sanity and freedom.

Stats: I’ve released 5.5 pounds to-date on this Summer Juice Feast (day 25), and about 15 during my 2nd JF of 28 days in March, and 28.5 pounds since January. I am grateful and feel much better, enjoying the looser feeling of my clothes. Yet I feel a tad frustrated in that my mind is now reprogrammed at a lower weight, and my body is slower in bringing that lower weight into realization. So this “gap” creates a dynamic tension which is, I presume, the Law of Attraction in action. Aaaah, patience.

Feeling great today. Very happy all day. I had an amazing lucid dream this morning wherein I saw my daddy, now dead for 4 years. I ran to hug him, and he was so solid! I half expected to put my hands through him, as if he were a ghost, but instead he was firm and very physical. I just kept hugging him and telling him how good it was to see him. He had an obscure message for me, that could have come straight out of a Harrison Ford spy movie, and he seemed very earnest to deliver it. So, being the solstice and all, I will seek out my best dream interpretation muses, and see if I can decode it. One thing is unmistakable. This was definitely my dad, the real deal, not a dream image. I was floored, aware that I was dreaming, and so found a bench to sit down with him and ask him more. One of the first things I asked was why was he appearing as his older self (he looked to be about ten years younger than the age at which he died), rather than a younger version of himself. He replied that he wanted to be sure that I recognized him. I am under the impression that we can create an idealized body after so-called physical death, and choose to look like radiant 30-year olds in the prime of health, forever if we choose. But I woke myself up shortly after this. I just got too excited, too emotional. What a cool dream.

Today I picked the hot, ripe plums that our loaded tree let drop to the ground, and juiced those. What a heady treat! They roll and hide themselves in the foliage, so it is a bit like an Easter egg hunt for purple eggs. What a gift.

When I was in the garden today I found a very large owl feather in my sacred medicine wheel, placed on a tree stump. Owl is my totem, and my lodge name, so this seemed a special solstice gift from nature. I wore it in my hair for a bit while I watered the thirsty plants, and visualized where a teepee would be a perfect addition to my sacred garden. a-HO!

I had enough energy again this evening to take a 2 mile walk. I am grateful to live in a safe neighborhood where walking in the dark is common. Except a lot of the folks out walking are on their way to and from the corner stores to buy their beer. The lines are long for the beer sales. This gives me a great deal of compassion for the human condition, and gratitude that I have always been other than attracted to alcohol. I understand, though, that any grains consumed have virtually the same effect as alcohol in the body once metabolized (sedative, brain fog, lack of muscular control … you can get drunk from carbs and sugar, and then want to pass out and sleep just like a drunk), and have of course experienced being drunk on carb overloads, and also have known the carb hangover the next day. So it is a blessing to be feasting and walking the streets at night when it cools. This way I can walk very fast and not get overheated, and enjoy the stretch up the hills.

At sunset the sky was filled with a flock of angels … sylph clouds spanning a mile or two area over my house, yet the sky was cloud free everywhere else. They all turned a glorious peachy-pink as the sun set, and I realized what a special day it has been.

I weighed myself today, and to my delight discovered I have released exactly 25 pounds since my birthday in January. I am so grateful that my clothes are not so tight as we hit the hot weather (it was 100 degrees today, but I didn’t feel it). Of course I attribute ALL of this success to juice feasting. It is my north star, guiding me to ever clearer levels of seeing and being.

It is said that a great release of light occurs on the solstices … and this is a time to breathe in that release of light, and allow ourselves to absorb and more fully become that light, consciously. I am so grateful to be juice feasting as that light enters all the earth. I feel uplifted, lighter, happier. Thank you to all that lives.

OK… now I am officially feasting again …. this is a privilege, and it feels like a prayer to Mother Earth, as expressed deep within me. So here is a photo of the beginning of the feast to record the start of the process … I was semi-feasting the last week …. but not 100% “there” … but now I am officially “here“. During my last feast I was able to go 28 days with total feastiness and another month in April of semi-feastiness with a few slips here and there in-between. And so Nature calls me to come up higher to a liquidy place of juiciness. So here come the green fingernails and green spatters on my white shirts … gotta love it! I learned so much the last feast so it will keep getting easier.

Now I want to go another 40 to 92 days of full-on feastiness …. And I am so grateful for my family members feasting with me. My daughter is starting the Master Cleanse today and my brother is already well into his feast, so that is very encouraging, for support means a lot. I felt a tremendous amount of ’stuff’ got cleared from my first feast on March 1 (which was really my second feast, as I did 14 days Summer 2007), and so I look for more fantastic results within this one. It feels extra juicy as we enter the summer. I am sooooo looking forward to this! Hey! I just did the math and figured out that I’m in a doubling pattern, as my 1st feast was 14 days, my second one was 28 days, so logic tells me that this one will be 56 days! And then 112! (giggle!)

I can report that gifts from the last feast mentally included increased resolve, mental focus and the ability to deal with things like boxes of paperwork that I’ve avoided for years. I was able to again secure a 4.0 GPA in very, very intense full-time course work in topics way out of my comfort zone. My ability to concentrate, grasp and understand new material was greater than any other time in my life. I also experienced more drive and resolve than I thought I possessed … this suprised me a lot. I attribute this to the extremely high nutrition from the huge amounts of superfood nutrition, healthy oils and the life force in the foods. This is an exciting discovery … that if we want to exceed our current limits, JFing is the way to go about it.

Physically, I saw wrinkles go bye-bye as well as a mysterious spot on my face that darkened, turned very dark brown, crusted, bled and then turned baby pink, tender at first but now fine and unnoticeable. My intuition tells me that was “pre” skin-cancer, but who knows. I got into raw foods because I was led to the research data that two out of three people will contract cancer in their lifetime. That scared me so much I decided to adopt an anti-cancer diet as my permanent diet. In other words, I eat/drink now pretty much what I would be having if I were diagnosed with cancer. So this takes the worry out of living, and has had the wonderful result of being guessed to be anywhere from 10-15 years younger than my actual age! Heck yeah! But rather than thinking of it as “anti-disease” I just think of it as living on life force. I also lost about 15 lbs, and gained back only 3. I look forward to releasing more during the summer feast. I definitely do NOT look like my driver’s license photo anymore (taken 8 years ago) which I chanced to look at today. My face was so bloated from that cooked food! My BIG (silly) goal is to look as young as my daughter, who is nearly 30. All we gotta do is just stay liquid, and time becomes liquid, too.

Spiritually, JF has deepened my connection to the flow, the NOW, ONEness, and much more deeply activated my burgeoning superhero. This is the aspect of Self who is rising above petty egoic concerns and moving into marrying daily actions with the highest path of service-to-others. I feel this is the natural spiritual evolution of the human … and many of us are being drawn into this lifestyle in various small and subtle ways. It is freeing to move into our superhero identity, as we can endlessly get lost in the labyrinth of the human dilemma. The only way out of that is up … living our bliss and sharing our natural gifts, talents and love in service-to-others. Trying to “fix” the ego is just plain exhausting! Feasting allows me to rise to a higher state of mind: “NO MIND” … just feeling juicy and good.

To continue my reflections on changes from JFing, emotionally I am a much neater and more organized person in many areas, and see that much more can be addressed (in other words, I am no longer overwhelmed and organizationally challenged) and now look forward to doing the next organizing thing and the next thing after that. I look to the JF to assist this process. I am still writing my three morning pages, and they are much calmer, and getting very visual, very flow-y, with diagrams and sketches, perfect for my whole-brain, non-linear approach. I was resisting them for a while because of the tremendous amount of ’stuff’ coming up, and hated having to write about this “stuff’ which just came out as angry scribbles. I didn’t even want to hold the pen to the page. Now I have relaxed into my happy place, so I see it all as a pleasure. While in the midst of the ’stuff’, however, it was all I could do to just keep rowing. So I attribute some of that intensity as to the reason I cut my full-on feastiness short. Plus, school kicked my hiney. Again. Now that the intensity is ebbing, I see a great opportunity to begin again. The JF is a bit of a grail cup for me …. within the crystal mason jar is the key to life … and a life worth living. It is very easy to be overwhelmed and sad when eating anything but a diet of LIFE FORCE. Anything less than that is dangerous to my spirits and my sanity. Dead food = dead thoughts, dead spirit, dead head. ‘Nuff said.

I was gifted yesterday with a good quantity of fresh apricots from a backyard tree of my ex, so that is a blessing…fruits of an old relationship that is now peaceful and friendly.

I look forward to sharing the gifts of our backyard garden … someday. Gotta plant something first!

Spirit is prompting me to add the ancient Hawaiian Huna practice of Ho’oponopono to my Juice Feasting, and tell my body many times daily: “I’m sorry. I love you. Please forgive me. Thank you.” As I do this, images of events from my past have flashed up, causing brief moments of intense feelings … I can press into certain areas of my body and feel a need to cry, to grieve, to forgive, to let go. After all, as we are awakening into our Real Nature, we lovingly see there is no need to be a walking file cabinet of past hurts. All can be released into LOVE.

Ponopono begins with “pono.” The definition of pono: “goodness, uprightness, morality, moral qualities, correct or proper procedure, excellence, wellbeing, prosperity, welfare, benefit, behalf, equity, sake, true condition or nature, duty; moral, fitting, proper, righteous, right, upright, just, virtuous, fair, beneficial, successful, in perfect order, accurate, correct, eased, relieved; should, ought, must, necessary.

Ponopono: “neat, tidy, in order, arranged, cared for, attended to, administer.”

Ho’oponopono is “to put to rights, to put in order or shape, correct, revise, adjust, amend, regulate, arrange, rectify, tidy up, make orderly or neat, administer, superintend, supervise, manage, edit, work carefully and neatly, to make ready, as canoemen preparing to catch a wave.”

YES!!!!!!!!! … catch the Wave of Higher Consciousness (LOVE) and surf higher frequency!

Ho’oponopono is “mental cleansing, family conferences in which relationships were set right through prayer, discussion, confession, repentance and mutual restitution and forgiveness.

Perhaps you have heard of a therapist in Hawaii who healed people, but never saw them.

Dr. Ihaleakala Hew Len worked in a mental hospital for violent, mentally insane criminals. Patients there were sedated and often even shackled. Staff called in sick a lot because they hated their job, the patients, and the environment. There was high staff turnover and high absenteeism … people just didn’t want to come to work, and the patients were violent and miserable.

But Dr. Len turned all that around. He did it solely by working on himself, doing an updated version of this ancient Hawaiian healing method called Ho’oponopono.

Dr. Len never saw a patient. He asked that all of their files be brought to his office. Each day he would pour over their files, and then look within himself, trying to clear what was in him that created the patient and his condition.

Huh?

The therapist said everything in your life is created from within you. When you change you, the outer world changes.

This unusual therapist was taking the idea of total responsibility into unknown territory. He was claiming that he could heal people — even mentally ill criminals — by healing himself.

After a few months of doing this inner work at that hospital, patients began to improve. Many began to go off their sedation. Many that were in chains could be freed. And many that had been in the mental hospital for seven years, were actually being released.

Even the staff started to get better, beginning to love their job and joyfully showing up to work every day. In fact, so many patients got better, that the hospital closed.

Incredible. Simply incredible.

This brings the idea of ONEness right to our very doorstep. Dr. Len actually heals himself to heal others. What was he doing inside himself, anyway?

“I just keep cleaning,” is all he could say.

This method of invoking Ho‘oponopono can be summed up in the 4 phrases that he uses whenever he wants to invoke Ho‘oponopono, which is also called “cleaning”:

• “I Love You”
• “I’m Sorry”
• “Please Forgive Me”
• “Thank You”

That’s it! By creating a mantra of saying those 4 things pretty much as often as you can day after day and week after week, you will quickly come to the realization that by Loving yourself, by Apologizing to yourself when you have done something wrong, by Forgiving yourself for that wrong-doing, and by Thanking yourself for the opportunity to create Good, as well as to stop creating Bad, that you can create your life to be “right”.

Recent research into DNA suggests that it functions as a recording device. The thoughts, experiences, traumas and emotions of our ancestors down the lines of time have created the experience we call “us”, and therefore our ancestral DNA is key to the formation of our own individual egoic identity and the conditions of our life. Spooky, huh? Those irrational fears may be those of your ancient relatives. That free-floating anxiety that seems groundless may be the result of real traumas experienced by your great-great-great granddaddy in another time and place, and although you did not live through it, it has manifested in your life. So the answer to the question “who am I?” may be that we are not “separate” beings at all, but rather, a collective consciousness of Life Dancing through You and Me. What a relief! Giving up the idea of separateness feels like heaven.

In Hawaiian, kahuna means “Precious One, The Provider, The Keeper of the Sacred Principle”. A beautiful kahuna (who was designated a Living Treasure of Hawaii in 1983) Lapa’au Morrnah Nalamaku Simeona uses this prayer to clear our ancestral DNA back in time, which clears our current reality:

The liturgy she said, goes like this:

“Divine creator, father, mother, son as one … If I, my family, relatives and ancestors have offended you, your family, relatives and ancestors in thoughts, words, deeds and actions from the beginning of our creation to the present, we ask your forgiveness … Let this cleanse, purify, release, cut all the negative memories, blocks, energies and vibrations and transmute these unwanted energies to pure light … And it is done.”

Morrnah says:

“in every faith there always is a portion (of the liturgy) in which we ask forgiveness of those we offend … But we go beyond that … to family, relatives, and ancestors … because possibly some of the problem stems from a grandfather who chopped off somebody’s head in another century.” That which we expel is transmuted into “pure light,” she said, because otherwise, “we would pollute the atmosphere” with our discarded garbage. “But as pure light, it does not contaminate.”

At the instant that she utters “and it is done” the transmutation takes place, she said, and “the computer automatically erases” the garbage that has been stored for … who knows for how long?

There are now therapists using the updated Ho’oponopono approach, (a process of repentance, forgiveness and transmutation developed by Kahuna Morrnah), where the therapist is able to have erroneous thoughts within himself and within the client transmuted into perfect thoughts of LOVE, working directly with the Original Source who can transmute erroneous thoughts into LOVE.

In response to the repentance and forgiveness appeal of the therapist, LOVE begins the mystical process of transmuting the erroneous thoughts. In this spiritual correction process, LOVE first neutralizes the erroneous emotions that have caused the problem, be they resentment, fear, anger, blame or confusion. In the next step, LOVE then releases the neutralized energies from the thoughts leaving them in a state of void, of emptiness of true freedom.

With the thoughts empty, free, LOVE then fills them with Itself. The result? The therapist is renewed, restored in LOVE. As the therapist is renewed so is the client and all involved in the problem. Where there was despair in the client, there is LOVE. Where there was darkness in her soul, there is now the healing Light of LOVE.

The wonder of the updated Ho’oponopono process is that you get to meet yourself anew each moment, and you get to appreciate more and more with each application of the process the renewing miracle of LOVE.

Here are the key ideas of this practice:

“I operate my life and my relationships according to the following insights:

1. The physical universe is an actualization of my thoughts.
2. If my thoughts are cancerous, they create a cancerous physical reality.
3. If my thoughts are perfect, they create a physical reality brimming with LOVE.
4. I am 100% responsible for creating my physical universe the way it is.
5. I am 100% responsible for correcting the cancerous thoughts that create a diseased reality.
6. There is no such thing as out there. Everything exists as thoughts in my mind.”

I believe that we Superheroes who CHOOSE to activate ourselves can RIGHT NOW begin daily employing this practice to heal our bodies, our families, our communities, our earth, this planet and bring in a new era of LOVE. LOVE, FORGIVENESS AND COMPASSION cures all, restores all.

Day 46 of this Juicy Journey has me thinking deeply about the sustainability of this new lifestyle. I realize that this juicy lifestyle is permanent. I am choosing to sustain this elevated consciousness of higher frequency eating forever … and I may find that juice becomes a mainstay of my diet even after I choose to eat some solid food again. I have shifted so deeply on so many levels. Juicing spotlights the many issues I have avoided during my life … specifically, healing the rift between the mind/spirit and body.

Beginning on around day 28, I have had small to large variances from the total adherence to the full protocol, so I am rededicating myself to the full and strict program as of yesterday … hence this is Day 2 in the pristine sense, and yet the momentum of juicing the last six weeks has brought me to ever increasing levels of surrender and a profound softening of the ego. The ego now understands it can release the pain body. The pain body now knows it can release the frequency causing physical problems.

What has shifted so profoundly is the old idea that there is a “me” and then there is a “body”. For years I was at war with this body, blaming it, poisoning it, abusing it, not understanding it, and doing anything but loving it. I understood this body to be a vehicle of consciousness, like a car to be driven. But I had a recent epiphany (while driving, of course!) that every nuance of this body and its current health conditions are but a reflection of every thought and emotion this mind/spirit has generated, and so all is in actuality ONE in vibrational frequency. There is no me and then a body. There is only ONEness. There is no duality, no separation. Now there is only awareness. As I thought “why isn’t this body releasing this or that more quickly?” I received the understanding that this body is the perfect mirror of whatever the mind releases and/or holds on to. So I now understand that whatever I want to see released must be accompanied by the release of the emotional and mental counterpart of that condition. This is deep! This forces another even deeper release. The release into the idea that all of this is beyond my conscious understanding, so my ego is officially “off the job”. All is released into the great ocean of Love. All my faith, hope and trust moves into the eternal NOW. My job is to juice and remain within the Sea of Love.

For an example of my past frustration, I have completed multiple gallbladder flushes over my life, following various protocols to the nth degree, with nothing to show but chaff…no stones were released, and yet I know I am “full of them”, to the extent that my digestion is so compromised a liquid diet is the only way I am truly comfortable. Eating anything at all causes bloat. My gallbladder and liver ducts are blocked. Without bile flowing, normal digestion cannot occur. Dr. David Jubb has promoted the idea of “upstream” cleansing as paramount to healthy digestion (meaning cleansing the gallbladder and liver before focusing on cleansing the colon, as the colon can clear as soon as the digestion is restored). This idea is like the idea of camping near a stream and wondering why it is foul if no one in your party is the offender. Yet if there is something afoul upstream (toxins in the liver and gallbladder) the lower river is also fouled, despite the number of enemas or colonics.

So of course, I can up my regime to include Stone Breaker, malic acid, and various other aids to soften the stones and support the process, but Spirit is also guiding me to deepen my understanding of the mind/spirit connection to the ideas of resentments and grudges, what “gall” I have been holding on to that has crystallized into “stones”. For we are both waves and particles, we are both the unseen and the seen, we are both spirit and matter, we are both aether and earth. To attempt to heal only the physical without releasing the causative energetic is to experience the frustration of a seemingly slow process and wonder “how can I sustain this? change is so slow ….” and miss the deepest release that is coming up to conscious awareness. So Spirit tells me: “you will release the gallstones as you release the gall”, which can be defined as “something bitter to endure; bitterness of spirit.”

And so now I am embracing the idea that this blessed juice feast is the opportunity to get in touch with emotions and feelings that have been suppressed and unacknowledged, and to remain in the NOW moment of Vishnu, sustaining that which is good: the life force in juice communing and commingling with the life force in this body. Each day of pure juicing is another series of loving waves moving through this body, washing out that which is impure, allowing Divine Intelligence to rebuild in the image of god/goddess consciousness as I keep myself in the vibration of Love.

It is important to hold loving thoughts while juicing, and infuse all that I eat with this love. As we know that each atom is 99.9% space, this space can be filled with the thoughts of the creator. I am the Brahma/creator of my juice as I prepare it each day. I choose to fill this space with love, and then this vibration can do its perfect work in my body.

As I focus on this love, it naturally releases all that is other than love. This then becomes the dance of Shiva, who dances upon ignorance. I have been either ignorant of the damage I have done to this body through my wrong thoughts and holding onto old resentments and traumas, or I have ignored the needs of this body to be given only love, through each choice I make. So the Shiva element releases all of this, through an artful dance, flowing from the Mother River of all Life.

All can be healed through Love. I am Brahma: sowing the seeds of love while I prepare my juice, and in setting the intention of my day. I am Vishnu: sustaining what is good in the garden of my life. I am Shiva: allowing all that is impure to be danced out of my reality.

I am also choosing to address Candida by including (along with my thrice-daily Stone Breaker drops) drops of the ultra-strong Oreganol and Grapefruit Seed Extract. The Candida has to hate this because it is super potent and I’ve got to knock it back like a shot of whiskey. I have discovered that it is most likely Candida that has caused my suspected leaky gut. Candida colonies grow in the intestine and put out long roots which penetrate through the intestine, puncturing the walls, and thus allow a septic condition to enter the blood. What if all of the sense of being tired that many of us feel is related to this condition? So my morning regime also includes MSM to reduce inflammation, and fresh aloe leaves to repair the intestinal lining. SHIVA to all of this Candida! I am sooooo grateful for the opportunity to heal via Mother Nature’s pharmacy, and the loving support of all juice feasters everywhere.

This journey is beyond cleansing the body … it is about cleansing the disheartened spirit, remembering a Higher Love, and a return to our native bliss, our original Self.

I am inspired by the book The Artist’s Way: A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity (which is about unblocking your creativity) to begin the daily practice of scribbling down three pages of stream-of-consciousness writing each morning (must be handwritten, not typed) to get whatever random stuff is stuck in your craw, unstuck. This is a morning enema for creativity. I was shocked to discover what stinky mess came out yesterday: every random negative thought and fear and lower-consciousness idea that had been sub-lurking for decades percolated to the surface and surprised the heck out of me. If you showed me this stuff I would absolutely deny I wrote it, it is so unlike me, yet there it is, in my own handwriting. All the repressed stuff I don’t even let myself think or say out loud, I let it flow. Doubts, insecurities, hateful rages, suppressed angers and upsets, judgments and all that has remained unspoken about myself and others. I felt dirty and soiled just writing it all out. But so carthartic, so revealing. The purpose of this exercise is not to judge what is written, not to edit, just let out whatever wants to come out, and let it sit on these three pages as the truth of the moment. The idea is that eventually, a higher aspect of self will emerge thru the gook, and this is the opening of the creative experience that was blocked. So I was able to see how much stuff I repressed and how it has been functioning to block my creativity, and was draining my energy and vitality.

Doing this allowed me to be more real, more truthful for the rest of the day in all my interactions. I felt calm and in my center. I was able to see many things deeper than before, including health issues and causes. I saw that my pattern in life is to run from what is difficult, to avoid it, and yet there it is.

The process of juice feasting itself is a truthful mirror. It will reveal not only the good and the beautiful, but also the ugly. This of course can be released and flushed from one self as one owns it, acknowledges how it was self-created, takes responsibility, and then forgives and intends to do better in the future.

Today my three pages were peaceful and more directed. I felt like I have broken through to a new relationship with my body, and am learning its mysteries and complexities. I feel a new commitment to choosing total health, optimum health, beyond my egoic and control-based manipulations to force my body to lose weight through this or that program. I feel tremendous compassion for my body, in that it remained relatively strong and healthy through my years of abuse and ignorance about its true needs and the true nature of healthful practices. I feel I want to establish a friendly relationship with my body, based on trust. I feel that if it were another person and we were in a relationship, it would be sick to death of me for all the broken promises of this and that that I swore I would “never do again”. So I am re-committing like a penitent mate to reform my errant ways and let go and let my Higher Self be guided into wise practices to allow a total cellular healing take place.

I know this will take time, and I am making this commitment permanent. This means that I am moving away from eating for pleasure (for the opiate rush) and moving towards giving my body what she truly needs.

I have sent powerful intentions out for Universal support, and I have seen the manifestation of this support via diverse gifts: magical books, helpful people, synchronized timing (right place/right time) learning about methods such as EFT and aversion therapy to deal with cravings, Oprah’s The New Earth webinar to learn about the pain body, people from the past showing up with whom I need to do some balancing, and a wonderfully large, athletic dog I am dog-sitting with for three weeks who accelerates my daily walks.

Today’s Juice (so far)

4 quarts of one of my daily staples, “Snappy Tom”

• red chard/red leaf lettuce greens flavored with stevia and mint, added to:
• tons of limes (met a neighbor with a lime orchard), roma tomatoes, carrots, celery, and ginger root, flavored with pink salt, fresh ground pepper, cayenne and Bragg’s Apple Cider Vinegar
• right before drinking, I mix about half of these drinks with my green powders and superfoods until they resemble foamy pond scum …. it amazes me that this tastes better and better to me each day ….

Food Cravings:

• Because my teenage son wants to eat SAD food (and I do not force him otherwise) I practice both EFT tapping and aversion therapy if I get a craving or a whiff of something I used to enjoy, and imagine it crawling with worms, sweepings from the barber shop floor, and other yucky images. This is working well for me, and all cravings are fleeting.

According to the idea of youth-ing oneself 120 days for each day one is fully committed to the JF protocol, I should be 8 years younger today! I will gratefully accept that idea, and declare to the Universe, “and so be it, and so it is!”

Juice Feasting feels like an opportunity to make the shift into living in the highest functioning, most optimally healthy, most alive-feeling bodies, and move into our immortal, conscious, awakened nature, in the Eternal, timeless Now. This is surfing higher frequency.

Today is the first day I took a photo to document my progress, which I will do periodically. So here I am, early in the day, just jumped out of bed, no make-up, and before my first juice of the day. I used to see a puffy, bloated face in the mirror upon awakening, so this photo is showing some progress away from that. And I look forward to looking healthier and healthier as the JF progresses, so this photo is a marker for the beginning stages of the JF, with more to look forward to in the future.

In addition to a general reduction of puffiness, jowliness, and wrinkly-ness, funnily enough, my freckles are lightening. Whoulda thunk? But then again, David Jubb (Happy Face) told me that freckles are a sign of excess of sugar consumption, so I really freckled up as child, happily eating a lot of candy, especially at all those Saturday matinées when I should have gone into a sugar coma, my pockets were so stuffed from candy smuggled into the theater.

It will be fun to journey backwards in time to inutero (LOL)….well, we’ll see about that!  And it would certainly be fun to meet up in time with the ages of my two children (28 and 14) or maybe even becoming younger than they are!  … And maybe I can find my pre-freckled self back there somewhere in my second childhood.

I am blessed with a wild patch of vibrant and magical aloe vera which I tend in my sacred tree grove in my backyard. The aloe deva has invited me to cut a leaf each day (for which I am abundantly grateful) and blend it in my morning drink. My very favorite elixir (that I made this morning) is pink grapefruit, dandelion greens, MSM, fresh aloe gel, spirulina, vitamineral green, stevia and peppermint drops. It is heaven. The aloe is specifically to heal the intestines; I suspect leaky gut so this is one of my healing intentions.

Changes are coming at the speed of light. I find it almost comically futile to blog as my thoughts and moods are as changeable as the clouds on a breezy day. I am very grateful for Tolle’s book A New Earth and The Work of Byron Katie to assist as old toxic emotions and “issues in the tissues” come up for transmutation and release. What a gift this juice feast is in allowing us to clear and re-invent ourselves in a clearer, more pristine mirrored image of our inner god/goddess consciousness.
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Today’s oracle on the Mayan calendar is Blue Overtone Monkey. The positive aspects of the day are: Artistry, Play, Innocence, Originality, Spontaneity, Inner child, Delight, Disruption, Magical, Transparent, and Laughter. And the way to come out of the shadow today is to re-access our sensitivity by healing our inner child.
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As issues from the past arise on this extended liquid journey, there are many opportunities to heal this inner wonder child. I am among those of us who found this to be a hostile planet in my early years, with few champions to protect my holy innocence from the harshness of this world. So the challenge is to recreate the past, and free oneself from these old memories stuck in the cellular and subconscious bodies. As I follow the work of Byron Katie and realize that I have been imprisoned by thoughts about this or that past treatment, and approach the natural state of “no thought”, I experience a glorious freedom from all that self-imposed restriction of joy. This means that I am opening to creating a beautiful and peaceful life in each moment, and this is as accessible as my willingness to let go of the past.
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I realize that I have been imprisoned by seemingly justified resentments, and although I have long been aware of this self-sabotage, I was other than able to do the work of cheerfully releasing those old records back to universal substance. Because the seemingly glaring evidence that these past injustices were indeed “real”, I carried these records in my body, and paid the price, for it kept me from soaring and feeling light, feeling as if I could break into dance at any moment. This must be what aging is … for a child knows no such obstruction to it’s delight in dancing in the sunlight of each moment. As I move into higher consciousness, I realize that no resentment is worth the price of my on-going sense of joy in each moment, so this is by own wake-up call to willingly surrender all of that into this eternal Now moment, and once again return to the holy innocent state of this pristine light being which is my core identity.
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I am abundantly grateful to report I have released 9.5 pounds since the JF began, and am feeling very good and energized, although my body wants to sleep sometimes ten hours each night. I have discovered that weight continues to drop at a rate of a half-pound each day as I walk 1.5 to 3 miles each day (at the local nature preserve), and also take a daily enema. I will most likely continue enemas as I long as I have weight to release, so this seems to be what my body is requesting. Plus I have linked that as soon as my mood becomes toxic, and I am other than 100% peaceful, it is a call for an internal flushing, and soon I am rebalanced.
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I am abundantly grateful for the opportunity to be much more attuned to the subtleties of the mind-body connection. To entertain myself, I created an excel spreadsheet with the starting day of March 1, my current age, and then subtracted 120 days for each day I journey on the feast, adding a comment column to estimate what major events were going on in my life during that time. This has proved very helpful; if I have a particularly emotional detoxing day, I can check my “backwards calendar” and see what was most likely happening a few years back, and then specifically target those old memories and emotions, and focus on clearing them.

Whenever I make ice, I send my conscious intention and love into the water as I fill the trays, and give thanks from a deep place within me. And each time I do this I am joyfully greeted the next day with ice that rises up to meet me and return the love. These crystals erupting out of the ice cubes are up to an inch tall and even higher. As I view them with a huge grin on my face, saying “Hi, guys! Thanks for the love!”, I almost don’t want to use the ice, as I enjoy marveling over them so much. Sometimes I will pick the ice crystals off and let them melt in my mouth as little ormus popsicles.

I wish my camera was better so you can see them in more detail. They look exactly like 6-sided quartz crystals unless I have them out of the freezer too long and they start to melt a bit, like the one in the foreground here.

So this was my sweet little gift from the ice devas yesterday (Sunday) that I thought I would take a photo to share with all of you …. in case you wanted to play with them too at your house.

I make ice nearly daily and I am always still so happy and giggly like a little kid when I pop open the freezer and see the little ice gifts, defying gravity, rising up out of their trays. I have experimented and discovered that when other people in the house make ice, this phenomenon does not occur, and if I am distracted and not centered in a higher frequency, then no crystals will appear.

I am reminded of the work of Masuro Emoto, who proved that water and ice has consciousness, and will respond with beautiful patterns to the thoughts and intentions we send. As we pour our love and mindfulness into our juice we feel this light as the ormus gives us the loving lift into higher frequency.

Also check out another picture of the ormus ice in the photo section at the global juice feasting site.

During my morning meditation I always like to be doing something. This habit perhaps came from the many years my work day was 12 hours, including a long commute through canyons and along the Santa Monica coast, so I had to multi-task to live in higher frequency. So normally I meditate while making juice, cleaning, raising the vibration of my surroundings via feng shui-ing, and this morning it felt like a nice long dry skin brushing session was calling out to me. This took me into a deeper level of understanding of the divine nature of our existence … that I AM this Inner Presence in this body, moving into expanded awareness. This very act of a long, conscious skin brush session allowed me to pour into my tissues this deep appreciation of this body on loan from the Universe, and my renewed intention to purify and honor it via juice feasting, et al.

In my friendly village (yes, that is the town byline!) there are four markets which sell organic produce within walking distance of my house. So the day beckoned and I found myself in conversation with several others in the produce aisles and before long they heard all about juice feasting. This heart-to-heart contact to give others a loving boost so each one of us can heal ourselves and each one break our addictions and co-dependence (to Big Pharma, SAD diet, being a medical victim, etc.) by sharing our Real Selves with each other adds beauty to our lives. Everyone knows someone with cancer. The worried look in people’s eyes is heartrending. It is so possible to heal oneself and yet this info is kept from them.

It feels sooooo good to wear all white during a purification …. so light! So after this walk and meditation I showered and it felt right to wear all white again. Last summer I was prompted by spirit to buy an all-white cotton wardrobe which I wore exclusively for months for reasons of inner purification. People thought I’d joined a cult … LOL. But as I move into higher sensitivity to vibration via the intake of light in the phytonutrients of our fresh juices, wearing all white head to toe feels like lifting oneself up on a sweet heavenly breeze.

So this second day of feasting I am dedicating to purification of intention down to the deepest levels of why I am here on this planet, how can I refine my service, how can I expand my love?