Day 46 of this Juicy Journey has me thinking deeply about the sustainability of this new lifestyle. I realize that this juicy lifestyle is permanent. I am choosing to sustain this elevated consciousness of higher frequency eating forever … and I may find that juice becomes a mainstay of my diet even after I choose to eat some solid food again. I have shifted so deeply on so many levels. Juicing spotlights the many issues I have avoided during my life … specifically, healing the rift between the mind/spirit and body.

Beginning on around day 28, I have had small to large variances from the total adherence to the full protocol, so I am rededicating myself to the full and strict program as of yesterday … hence this is Day 2 in the pristine sense, and yet the momentum of juicing the last six weeks has brought me to ever increasing levels of surrender and a profound softening of the ego. The ego now understands it can release the pain body. The pain body now knows it can release the frequency causing physical problems.

What has shifted so profoundly is the old idea that there is a “me” and then there is a “body”. For years I was at war with this body, blaming it, poisoning it, abusing it, not understanding it, and doing anything but loving it. I understood this body to be a vehicle of consciousness, like a car to be driven. But I had a recent epiphany (while driving, of course!) that every nuance of this body and its current health conditions are but a reflection of every thought and emotion this mind/spirit has generated, and so all is in actuality ONE in vibrational frequency. There is no me and then a body. There is only ONEness. There is no duality, no separation. Now there is only awareness. As I thought “why isn’t this body releasing this or that more quickly?” I received the understanding that this body is the perfect mirror of whatever the mind releases and/or holds on to. So I now understand that whatever I want to see released must be accompanied by the release of the emotional and mental counterpart of that condition. This is deep! This forces another even deeper release. The release into the idea that all of this is beyond my conscious understanding, so my ego is officially “off the job”. All is released into the great ocean of Love. All my faith, hope and trust moves into the eternal NOW. My job is to juice and remain within the Sea of Love.

For an example of my past frustration, I have completed multiple gallbladder flushes over my life, following various protocols to the nth degree, with nothing to show but chaff…no stones were released, and yet I know I am “full of them”, to the extent that my digestion is so compromised a liquid diet is the only way I am truly comfortable. Eating anything at all causes bloat. My gallbladder and liver ducts are blocked. Without bile flowing, normal digestion cannot occur. Dr. David Jubb has promoted the idea of “upstream” cleansing as paramount to healthy digestion (meaning cleansing the gallbladder and liver before focusing on cleansing the colon, as the colon can clear as soon as the digestion is restored). This idea is like the idea of camping near a stream and wondering why it is foul if no one in your party is the offender. Yet if there is something afoul upstream (toxins in the liver and gallbladder) the lower river is also fouled, despite the number of enemas or colonics.

So of course, I can up my regime to include Stone Breaker, malic acid, and various other aids to soften the stones and support the process, but Spirit is also guiding me to deepen my understanding of the mind/spirit connection to the ideas of resentments and grudges, what “gall” I have been holding on to that has crystallized into “stones”. For we are both waves and particles, we are both the unseen and the seen, we are both spirit and matter, we are both aether and earth. To attempt to heal only the physical without releasing the causative energetic is to experience the frustration of a seemingly slow process and wonder “how can I sustain this? change is so slow ….” and miss the deepest release that is coming up to conscious awareness. So Spirit tells me: “you will release the gallstones as you release the gall”, which can be defined as “something bitter to endure; bitterness of spirit.”

And so now I am embracing the idea that this blessed juice feast is the opportunity to get in touch with emotions and feelings that have been suppressed and unacknowledged, and to remain in the NOW moment of Vishnu, sustaining that which is good: the life force in juice communing and commingling with the life force in this body. Each day of pure juicing is another series of loving waves moving through this body, washing out that which is impure, allowing Divine Intelligence to rebuild in the image of god/goddess consciousness as I keep myself in the vibration of Love.

It is important to hold loving thoughts while juicing, and infuse all that I eat with this love. As we know that each atom is 99.9% space, this space can be filled with the thoughts of the creator. I am the Brahma/creator of my juice as I prepare it each day. I choose to fill this space with love, and then this vibration can do its perfect work in my body.

As I focus on this love, it naturally releases all that is other than love. This then becomes the dance of Shiva, who dances upon ignorance. I have been either ignorant of the damage I have done to this body through my wrong thoughts and holding onto old resentments and traumas, or I have ignored the needs of this body to be given only love, through each choice I make. So the Shiva element releases all of this, through an artful dance, flowing from the Mother River of all Life.

All can be healed through Love. I am Brahma: sowing the seeds of love while I prepare my juice, and in setting the intention of my day. I am Vishnu: sustaining what is good in the garden of my life. I am Shiva: allowing all that is impure to be danced out of my reality.

I am also choosing to address Candida by including (along with my thrice-daily Stone Breaker drops) drops of the ultra-strong Oreganol and Grapefruit Seed Extract. The Candida has to hate this because it is super potent and I’ve got to knock it back like a shot of whiskey. I have discovered that it is most likely Candida that has caused my suspected leaky gut. Candida colonies grow in the intestine and put out long roots which penetrate through the intestine, puncturing the walls, and thus allow a septic condition to enter the blood. What if all of the sense of being tired that many of us feel is related to this condition? So my morning regime also includes MSM to reduce inflammation, and fresh aloe leaves to repair the intestinal lining. SHIVA to all of this Candida! I am sooooo grateful for the opportunity to heal via Mother Nature’s pharmacy, and the loving support of all juice feasters everywhere.

This journey is beyond cleansing the body … it is about cleansing the disheartened spirit, remembering a Higher Love, and a return to our native bliss, our original Self.